i've actually pleaded w my hubby for hours in the nite not to divorce. N he was the one who insisted on we divorcing, stating that i m a lousy wife, that i didnt perform my duty as wife, that i m only a good mother but failed as a wife. Sigh. We live with our in-laws, n i have people to know whether i have failed in all aspects. He's now pointing all his fingers at me, whereas to me, yes i accepted what he said, i recognised my flaws now. Just that i wonder, has he ever think abt his own actions? Whenever i or even my inlaws try asking him in a concerned way, he'll always conceal his feelings or shut himself out fr us. N now at the end of the day, he feels that i dun show concern to him that i love him. Oh my.....to me, it's such a great misunderstanding, n does that constitute a divorce?????? On his part, has he ever tot of the stress i face, being a new mother, caring for a newborn, and having to balance my time in workplace??? I've been concerned abt him, all along, but as i dun see him often, that he's always working OT n working thru the nite, i didnt get any appropriate chance to display my affection for him. Does it mean that i dun love him then???? My inlaws understand my stress, n they've helped to offload me in caring for mybb, just that i still see myself as having to be responsible to spend time w bb despite people being around to help out.
Well.....anyway, i'm clearer abt what's going on in his mind, n what he wants. I cant change his mindset, but i can change myself to please him. Only because i love him.