hehe green, coz mayb it has been such a long time..since you seen my posts a year ago till now..
this morning my htb stil tell me he feel not blessed in marriage and he felt she is controlling our happiness in the sense that she did not participate in wedding prep and when he asked her how many frens she inviting so we can tidy up the guest list, she said, she has no frens..
other than that, my guy also said, he felt she did not relate our wedding dates to her side of relatives..so like no one is well informed kinda.
he looked abit sulky..so i told him, we can always call them and inform..anyway it's also a form of respect..and i told him again, never be affected by her actions or watever...i dun wan us to be sulky over her...no matter wat, the areas she did not covered for her role, i will make sure we overcome it.
he said, he wana be on good terms back to her..try to reconcile..coz he cannot bring himself to talk to her..said, in a sense he is also avoiding..like see her face also noting to say...and also, he fear if he say someting wrong, will spur up her anger and will end up quareling in house again and blow it big (again)
i asked y he wana reconcile..he said he wana ask her about the si dian jin for me..i said no need...if she wans to give she give, dun wan i also dun even wana talk about it..he said he felt it's not fair to me..i said, for wat? since wana ask then have ...or even ask also dun have? wat for i want...i told him, this is only to show a token of appreciation to DIL..if not, i also dun wana take already constantly hear her talk about how she spend money on me and yet i blah blah blah...heard from my guy's sis in law, she only gave her a very very thin bracelet worth about 150..
anyway, i really not eyeing on the thought at all manz..i tell myself, i always have my aunties and mom's blessings and who knows i will also have some jewellery from my own relatives...wat for i eye on her miserable token
wat i ought to do, i will..like on mother's day, i insist on buying a gift for her, and during dinner time, i asked my guy to pass to her, not me..i dun wan her to feel im trying to saka to her infront of her son..
i duno to be angry or to be happy she is not inviting..anyway i remembered i only said "har, ok lo" to my guy..i did not even probe further..
cant be bothered..really
no use to argue or debate or talk sense or to ask why..just let her have her way, watever she wants, so long as she is not living with me in my flat can liao..hehe
im also surprised to see myself geting more use to her now..like her presense, her black face, her attitute, her non-spoken words shown on her face. immuned liao
on the other hand i thought that if i reali bother about it, then the episode will never end...now at least it can end at my end...out of sight out of mind..that's wat one of my fren instill in me.
and i felt it really makes sense.
really exhausted and feel it's really not worth my attention or emotions on her..i will just act a smiley face and immune face infront of her nowadays during dinner..many times, my face is 'normal' and 'no expressions'..just eat and go
emm for room me and htb are both abit regretful on geting the room without toilet attached..feel abit uneasy..luckily stil got aircon..we will never make do without aircon..
green, so u also rented a room ah? when your house ready har?