I am like you too. If you read this thread "What if you see this message on your hubby's handphone?" You will find my story there. I am Suspic.
I left my husband because he betrayed me. It hurt hell at that time. In fact the intial period when I found out, I could sleep or eat. I cant even sit still. I cant talk even. I just keep trembling. And my heart beats so fast that I think if I had gone to a doctor, he will be shocked!
But I have now walked thru that dark period and am recovering well. I guess being emotionally strong and having the right perspectives in life is very important. My family kept me going.
But it wasnt easy. I was so sad, I lost so much weight. I developed light asthma. Wherever I go, even on buses, I cried. Even walking on the roads, I cried. Every nite, I had to pray and play christian hymns to keep me going. At first, I even needed sleeping pills and muscle relaxers to rest well.
How are you now? Staying at your parents? Are you occupied with a job? Financially ok?
I can tell you are a very strong gal. Hold on! When you are at life's lowest pit, be comforted that there is no other way than up! And I m sure there many people who loves you. In fact, we all at this forum care for you even though we dont know u personally.
Take care, be strong and if you like a listening ear, you may email me too [email protected]
I started the above email account when friends and people in the thread requested and they emailed me. And I related some of the more personal details to them thru that.