hi alhana,
yah, you are rite. nothing is certain and we just have to assess our options and make the best decision. but sometimes, its hard to determine which is the best option so a lot of times, i chose to remain status quo.... that is why i stayed on in my old co despite all my frustrations... and thats why im also staying put here at the moment.
i dun like to search for jobs... all those resume/cover letter writing, interviews, rejection letters can really drive me crazy.
when i decide to leave the old co, i strongly believe that its impossible to stay on... i dun get enough support from my staff and my boss. there is also this person who is very uncooperative and becos of her, other ppl also dun take my deadline seriously. so a lot of times i get reports late from her and i have to stay back to rush my report in order to meet my deadline. my boss din show much support to help me control that person and i really felt so helpless.
although now they have put that person under control, i heard that she is very unhappy and has resorted to crying just to get her power back. im totally disgusted by that and i think she wun cooperate with me even if i go back. so why should i put myself at risk again?
its true that i have a lot of autonomy and freedom to do things back there. my boss said he felt i have done a good job and i believe that he will be more supportive if i go back. however, i think certain problems need to be resolved before i can go back. their motive for getting me back is to solve those problems which i have given up hope.
most imptly, i think i can still stay on in my current co. if i hop again, it's hard to convince ppl that im not a job-hopper.... esp when im going back to the old co, if things dun get resolved and revert back to the old ways, im back to square one and have to find a new job all over again!
i prayed that i can leave my old co, and i managed to find this new job within 2 mths. i believe god has a purpose in leading me to my current co. i just have to hold on and believe that there will be light at the end of this dark tunnel..... and i seriously hope i chose the rite tunnel this time.