seekinghappiness
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How am I gonna leave this sad marriage??
I am only 28 years old and yet I have lived like a widow for past 5 years.
Out marriage started with a shotgun when I was 20 and he was 28.
But after 2nd child birth 5 years back he stopped all intimacy with me giving me excuse of stress, scared of more pregnacy.
But I caught him watching porns and masturbated before and even when I had successfully aroused him he just turned away.
Many nights he will go out drinking till late and sometime I caught him with perfume n lipsticks stain.Then he will come back showered or mouth washed.
And all the times he will do his own thing and I do mine own even I tried talking about this matter alot of time he will ignored.So many times I said I wanna leave the marriage he will turn good but not for long.This repeated process is sickening me.
The worst period is 5 years ago when I got depression after 2nd child birth.For a year I cut mine wrist to relieve the pain inside me and even tried commited suicide once but he didnt realised......
Now after so many years I found a wonderful guy and wanted to end the marriage to start mine life anew but he refused to let go.
He has became so emotional and desperate when he found about this new guy.He keep saying wanted to die and even said the children future will suffer.
But I am wondering will he change for good this time round and give him a last chance?
I also do realised mine child has emotional problem coping with our issues.
What am I gonna do??
I am only 28 years old and yet I have lived like a widow for past 5 years.
Out marriage started with a shotgun when I was 20 and he was 28.
But after 2nd child birth 5 years back he stopped all intimacy with me giving me excuse of stress, scared of more pregnacy.
But I caught him watching porns and masturbated before and even when I had successfully aroused him he just turned away.
Many nights he will go out drinking till late and sometime I caught him with perfume n lipsticks stain.Then he will come back showered or mouth washed.
And all the times he will do his own thing and I do mine own even I tried talking about this matter alot of time he will ignored.So many times I said I wanna leave the marriage he will turn good but not for long.This repeated process is sickening me.
The worst period is 5 years ago when I got depression after 2nd child birth.For a year I cut mine wrist to relieve the pain inside me and even tried commited suicide once but he didnt realised......
Now after so many years I found a wonderful guy and wanted to end the marriage to start mine life anew but he refused to let go.
He has became so emotional and desperate when he found about this new guy.He keep saying wanted to die and even said the children future will suffer.
But I am wondering will he change for good this time round and give him a last chance?
I also do realised mine child has emotional problem coping with our issues.
What am I gonna do??
