thanks to stacey, danlee & sy chen for your kind words.
to me, its really easier said than done actually. i did tell myself that since its the most important day of my life, i should not let anything get me down... but its sometimes difficult to keep a positive mindset.
i keep thinking that when we go for our first trial fitting end of this month, if i do manage to fit into any OTR gowns, the image that stared back at me in the mirror will be
[email protected]#$%. its hard to look & feel pretty when you look like *shitz* lor.
i'll need to have super thick skin to disregard stares & awful comments lor. even though on the surface, i can act nonchalent but deep inside, i am very much affected & hurt by unkind words.
anyway, i know its no use to just whine & cry here so i will still continue to diet & exercise. have not seen much improvement inpsite of my efforts but at least i know i have done my best.
btw, i just colored & rebonded my hair last week. starting to buck up on my beauty regime with face scrubs/face masks/beauty cream every other day etc... i dont have good complexion too so hope at the very least, skin can look better on my big day lor.
currently, my lists of things to do:
- collate wedding songs to be played during banquet (already had 18 songs).
- DIY my ang pao box (not yet started)
- print wedding inserts
- shop for Guo Da Li stuffs as well as new mattress/bedsheets for An Chuan.
- do engravings on wedding bands
hope all will go well lor.