I've been struggling with wedding stress lately.
My fiance and I signed up for an overseas pre wedding shoot package.
By right, I should be excited about it but I realised I have no energy to deal with it as this matter has escalated to a combine famillies/relatives trip over the months.
My fiance promised that the holiday trip will not hinder the shoot.
However, I was expected to arrange my shoot according to the dates that suit everybody's schedule.
I was also expected to book the same five-star accomodations/ flights/ bus charter as the families.
My overseas shoot budget trip expenses has tripled even before I fly.
It also doesn't help when my fiance has been leaving me to deal with his own family on the trip plannings.
There were so many places I refuse to go... However, I was expected to accomodate right from the start.
It's supposed to be a happy occassion but i just can't bring myself to feel happier.
In addiition, his anger management has been very horrible lately.
I get screamed and yelled at for no reasons/ small little things that werent initially caused by me.
I also get questioned by the family members and relatives about my wedding preparations in all sorts of unpleasant ways.
I am so overwhelmed, I've actually totally lost interest in talking to him.
What makes me even sadder was I was regarded as an Outsider to my fiance's family.
He's not allowed to stay over at my place during CNY as they believe me, an Outsider, will bring him bad luck for the rest of new year.
I thought he would at least put in some effort in making me feel happier by dating me on valentine's day, but it didnt happened.
I feel so devastated... =(
My fiance and I signed up for an overseas pre wedding shoot package.
By right, I should be excited about it but I realised I have no energy to deal with it as this matter has escalated to a combine famillies/relatives trip over the months.
My fiance promised that the holiday trip will not hinder the shoot.
However, I was expected to arrange my shoot according to the dates that suit everybody's schedule.
I was also expected to book the same five-star accomodations/ flights/ bus charter as the families.
My overseas shoot budget trip expenses has tripled even before I fly.
It also doesn't help when my fiance has been leaving me to deal with his own family on the trip plannings.
There were so many places I refuse to go... However, I was expected to accomodate right from the start.
It's supposed to be a happy occassion but i just can't bring myself to feel happier.
In addiition, his anger management has been very horrible lately.
I get screamed and yelled at for no reasons/ small little things that werent initially caused by me.
I also get questioned by the family members and relatives about my wedding preparations in all sorts of unpleasant ways.
I am so overwhelmed, I've actually totally lost interest in talking to him.
What makes me even sadder was I was regarded as an Outsider to my fiance's family.
He's not allowed to stay over at my place during CNY as they believe me, an Outsider, will bring him bad luck for the rest of new year.
I thought he would at least put in some effort in making me feel happier by dating me on valentine's day, but it didnt happened.
I feel so devastated... =(