Hi,
I really need advice and help right now. I am not in my normal mental stage, I feel like I just want to end my life, my everything. I tried but I do not have the guts yet.
My fiance (my bf) and I has been together for 4.5years and had been living together for a year. We are due to get married end of this year. We registered for BTO and we paid 20% downpayment of our new house which will be ready in 2011.
I am in the midst of wanting a breakup but it comes with heafty cost and emotional stage.
It all comes right after he was sacked by his company in end Nov. He was less than a year there where this thing occurred causing him to be sacked. His colleagues/ boss had maligned him at work. He is now pushing ALL the blame to me including changing of job from his previous job, my family member's outing, and so on.
Since last year, I had been mentally abused by calling me names - bitch, whore, asshole, jinx, F-word, and all other things. He shouted at me in public loudly and the public usually stare at us. There are a lot of incidents on this.
He starts to message me like 50 messages a day - non stop calling me names during day, while in the evening, he will hurled all kinds of names at me in front of his parents.
This turned worst when he started to physically abuse me - there was once, while sleeping, he slapped me more than 10 times in a row so hard, that I was just numbed and dazed - crying alone by the bed and doing nothing. It hurts me so badly.. So badly from the hard tight continuous slaps.
I really want to help him out of this retrenchment. I have advised him a lot of time to look forward and not to push the blame on me. But he refused, everyday, he got worst.
And TODAY (13Jan09) - he messaged me that he is going to look for other girls to make love now. He was home very late. I do not want to think about it further, I just hid myself under the blanket and sleep. He is sleeping out of the room now.
I was totally devastated, and moreover, I found a packet of cigarettes in his bag, and found its nearly empty - 12 sticks gone. He is a person that doesnt smoke and now he is smoking 12 at a shot!
I was very heartbroken. I am clueless. I wish to end all these, as all these is affecting my work very badly that I cant concentrate.
If we were to end everything, we will lose the 20% of the downpayment of the BTO (from HDB) and on top of that we need to pay penalty $30,000 grant. I think we may have difficulties getting HDB flat in future if we to drop the BTO and incur penalty from the grant.
Apart from that, we have other packages on hand like - bridal package and household furnishings.
Please help me! I feel like dying. I can't cope with all these. And, I am worried of his mental stage (coping with unemployment stage), worried of my daily abuse, and worried of my finances if we were to break up.
I need help.. Please.. I am in great pain.
Kaleen.
I really need advice and help right now. I am not in my normal mental stage, I feel like I just want to end my life, my everything. I tried but I do not have the guts yet.
My fiance (my bf) and I has been together for 4.5years and had been living together for a year. We are due to get married end of this year. We registered for BTO and we paid 20% downpayment of our new house which will be ready in 2011.
I am in the midst of wanting a breakup but it comes with heafty cost and emotional stage.
It all comes right after he was sacked by his company in end Nov. He was less than a year there where this thing occurred causing him to be sacked. His colleagues/ boss had maligned him at work. He is now pushing ALL the blame to me including changing of job from his previous job, my family member's outing, and so on.
Since last year, I had been mentally abused by calling me names - bitch, whore, asshole, jinx, F-word, and all other things. He shouted at me in public loudly and the public usually stare at us. There are a lot of incidents on this.
He starts to message me like 50 messages a day - non stop calling me names during day, while in the evening, he will hurled all kinds of names at me in front of his parents.
This turned worst when he started to physically abuse me - there was once, while sleeping, he slapped me more than 10 times in a row so hard, that I was just numbed and dazed - crying alone by the bed and doing nothing. It hurts me so badly.. So badly from the hard tight continuous slaps.
I really want to help him out of this retrenchment. I have advised him a lot of time to look forward and not to push the blame on me. But he refused, everyday, he got worst.
And TODAY (13Jan09) - he messaged me that he is going to look for other girls to make love now. He was home very late. I do not want to think about it further, I just hid myself under the blanket and sleep. He is sleeping out of the room now.
I was totally devastated, and moreover, I found a packet of cigarettes in his bag, and found its nearly empty - 12 sticks gone. He is a person that doesnt smoke and now he is smoking 12 at a shot!
I was very heartbroken. I am clueless. I wish to end all these, as all these is affecting my work very badly that I cant concentrate.
If we were to end everything, we will lose the 20% of the downpayment of the BTO (from HDB) and on top of that we need to pay penalty $30,000 grant. I think we may have difficulties getting HDB flat in future if we to drop the BTO and incur penalty from the grant.
Apart from that, we have other packages on hand like - bridal package and household furnishings.
Please help me! I feel like dying. I can't cope with all these. And, I am worried of his mental stage (coping with unemployment stage), worried of my daily abuse, and worried of my finances if we were to break up.
I need help.. Please.. I am in great pain.
Kaleen.
