Deathbecomesme
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I have. Plenty of times. Initially, I felt quite guilty having such mean thoughts but as time grows by and the mental, verbal and physical torture grows, the guilt gets lesser and lesser while the thoughts become more pronounced to the point I wished my spouse getting knocked down or gets a terminal disease.
Yes, it is really "bad" and I know it is wrong to wish such things on a human especially on one who happens to be your spouse but sometimes, it just comes up especially at the peak of those mad quarrels and fights. Anyone else have the same thoughts before or am I just a really mean and evil person?
I know, some may say if so unhappy, why not just get a divorce but after a certain stage of life especially with young kids, things are not so simple as just packing a bag and leaving and especially when the other person gives you an incredibly hard time every time you mention divorce. I put on a show of false happiness with my spouse every other day such that I think suffering spouses like myself deserve an Academy Award and if you do like wise like me, kudos to you as I know it is not easy.
Yes, it is really "bad" and I know it is wrong to wish such things on a human especially on one who happens to be your spouse but sometimes, it just comes up especially at the peak of those mad quarrels and fights. Anyone else have the same thoughts before or am I just a really mean and evil person?
I know, some may say if so unhappy, why not just get a divorce but after a certain stage of life especially with young kids, things are not so simple as just packing a bag and leaving and especially when the other person gives you an incredibly hard time every time you mention divorce. I put on a show of false happiness with my spouse every other day such that I think suffering spouses like myself deserve an Academy Award and if you do like wise like me, kudos to you as I know it is not easy.