yes simpleman... she loves all of you.. but she is guilty... you have seen her at her worst, during the incident... and even forgiven her... but she can't forgive herself...
if i'm her, i will be confused over do i still love you or feel guilty towards you. but i think she chose to feel guilty. She is hiding and running away, she doesn't know how tough the road will be if she returns... and she choose to leave, so she face it alone rather than making you all face it together if she returns. Uncertainty is in herself, she has lost in herself, by loving another guy and letting u down. She dare not try anymore. I reckon she still love you, as a hubby for 17 years, and as a companion thru-out. She will confirm it one day. One day if you are not ard (choy!), or something bad has happened to you, she will wake up and have enough courage to admit she still love u...
I'm just expressing my thoughts after gathering what she did and what has happened... women still understand women most... so keep your thoughts and perception abt her aside... things she is doing or had done may not turn out the way she wanted it to be perceived... Women are contradicting creatures.. that i truly agree