Hi Milo, SM and Jenny, u know what, since young I have been following what my mum says, and I am so used to her giving me instructions and advise that I can't make my own decisions (Jenny and SM: see the topic on 'mum does not appreciate me' to see my story). it is not that I can't make my own decisions. I am afraid of making my own decisions cos I am just not used to making my own decisions.
Right now, my mum still tries to 'interfere' and make decisions for me. and she makes me feel very uncomfortable and guilty if I dun follow her decision.
SM, I did not know that asking Guan Yin using the divination lot involves having to follow.
Right now as I try to be independent, I still feel fear as I try to make my own decisions.
It is like,trying to take a step forward, but feeling scare simply cos I am not used to it.
Bt it does not mean that I dun wan to have a mind of my own, or that I dun wan to take control of my life. I want to. Just that I feel like I am struggling right now as I try to take the first step. I am not giving up tho. I am taking in everyone's advice here but I know I have to stand on my own feet and have my own views, make my own decision and move forward with it.