mantianxinxin
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Dear all, i just want to share something kept in my heart for years.
When i was 14, i fell in love with a guy from my secondary school. I like everything about him, from his smile to his character. He was just perfect in my eyes.
He knew that i had a thing for him but he fell in love with my classmate instead. He chased the girl infront of my eyes.
I would cry myself to sleep everyday and would try to diet just because i wanted to look better than her (btw i was only 40 kg to begin with).
When we left school, i was still very in love with him. I could remember every thing about him clearly. Every year, i looked forward to August because that was the only time i could have an exeuse to contact him. I would wait till 12am sharp and send him a birthday message.
I didnt change my number for more than a decade because i have the tiny little hope that he would contact me one fine day..
I dream about him quite often, and i hate myself for waking up..
I would google his name and search for him in social networking sites, i wanted to get updates about him. I would feel happy if i knew that he was...
I name myself Josephine because his name is Joseph. I even input it in my NRIC.. I wanted to have a beautiful memory of him..
I still tear when i think of him now..I look at his photos to cope with my own feelings..
Sometimes when i have my handphone rings, i really hope to see his number...
I was still living this kind of life until a mircle happened.............
When i was 14, i fell in love with a guy from my secondary school. I like everything about him, from his smile to his character. He was just perfect in my eyes.
He knew that i had a thing for him but he fell in love with my classmate instead. He chased the girl infront of my eyes.
I would cry myself to sleep everyday and would try to diet just because i wanted to look better than her (btw i was only 40 kg to begin with).
When we left school, i was still very in love with him. I could remember every thing about him clearly. Every year, i looked forward to August because that was the only time i could have an exeuse to contact him. I would wait till 12am sharp and send him a birthday message.
I didnt change my number for more than a decade because i have the tiny little hope that he would contact me one fine day..
I dream about him quite often, and i hate myself for waking up..
I would google his name and search for him in social networking sites, i wanted to get updates about him. I would feel happy if i knew that he was...
I name myself Josephine because his name is Joseph. I even input it in my NRIC.. I wanted to have a beautiful memory of him..
I still tear when i think of him now..I look at his photos to cope with my own feelings..
Sometimes when i have my handphone rings, i really hope to see his number...
I was still living this kind of life until a mircle happened.............
