I broke up with my bf of 2 years just a month ago. Reason of breaking up is he wants his freedom, he doesn't want to feel constrain, he want to focus on his career (he just grad, 25 yrs old), he doesn't want a long term relationship (then why he got together with me in the first place?), he dun feel like it's the real "him" when he's with me. Though he also said that the problem lies with him, not me, when i'm still trying to work things out with him.
I admit i'm the insecure kind, we had our fair share of quarrels, but he also acknowledge that i've improved a lot for him.
He said many times before I am the best gf, or even the perfect wife, but too bad we met at the wrong time. He plan to focus on his career first, and only settle down when he's 28 or 29. i wanted to wait for him, but he doesn't want me to. But he said by the time he is ready to settle down, he MIGHT come back to me (out of the many possibilities). He also promised to come back to me asap.
Recently i felt like he's becoming like some guy whom i don't know at all. He began to do things he doesn't do when i know him for the past 2 years. it hurts. We still hung out together, though a bit awkward. A few days before he's leaving for one month trip to Kenya, we hung out almost like a couple. Almost. especially before he left, at the airport, we're practically like a couple.
He said he still loves me, though not like before. According to his definition, the love he has for me is "at a level higher than friends, but below couple". and i can sense that he still loves me too.
Part of me wants to follow him, be by his side, wait for him, willing to bear all the pain, even if he doesn't come back to me. While there's another part of me very afraid of being hurt again.
I don't know what he's thinking. I don't know what to do. To be by his side, risk reliving all pain, to support him and maintain the love he still has for me, or to let go totally, risking his love for me will die one day, while praying hard that he'll still come back to me?
Help me.
I admit i'm the insecure kind, we had our fair share of quarrels, but he also acknowledge that i've improved a lot for him.
He said many times before I am the best gf, or even the perfect wife, but too bad we met at the wrong time. He plan to focus on his career first, and only settle down when he's 28 or 29. i wanted to wait for him, but he doesn't want me to. But he said by the time he is ready to settle down, he MIGHT come back to me (out of the many possibilities). He also promised to come back to me asap.
Recently i felt like he's becoming like some guy whom i don't know at all. He began to do things he doesn't do when i know him for the past 2 years. it hurts. We still hung out together, though a bit awkward. A few days before he's leaving for one month trip to Kenya, we hung out almost like a couple. Almost. especially before he left, at the airport, we're practically like a couple.
He said he still loves me, though not like before. According to his definition, the love he has for me is "at a level higher than friends, but below couple". and i can sense that he still loves me too.
Part of me wants to follow him, be by his side, wait for him, willing to bear all the pain, even if he doesn't come back to me. While there's another part of me very afraid of being hurt again.
I don't know what he's thinking. I don't know what to do. To be by his side, risk reliving all pain, to support him and maintain the love he still has for me, or to let go totally, risking his love for me will die one day, while praying hard that he'll still come back to me?
Help me.