I had just gave birth to my boy.. during the 9mths of pegnany period, my hubby and i have sex for less than 5 times. I have extremenly low sex drive during that 9 mths of pregnancy. After baby is born, when my hubby asked for it i reject him always, maybe only once i gave in to him.
maybe due to the pressure of our newborn, i totally have no mood for sex at all.
Recently found out that hubby was "doing it" himself while looking at pics of ladies on the internet, (those models posing for cars or ladies in skimpy cltohes, etc.) But they all not nude though. There's a question going on my head, why did he look at those pics instead of watching porn?? (which normally guys will do) And those pics are not nude at all. Is this his fetish??
im extremenly hurt after catching hin red handed, but also thankful he didnt went to look for one night stand instead. I did went to confront him and he said he was very sorry and promise me not to do that again.. he told me he did that because "he is a man" and im always rejecting him..
I know im the one in the wrong in the first place, but i just cant forget the "scence", it kept flashing back in my mind i felt so hurt. I even thought of leaving him. Maybe im a pefectionist when comes to marriage. I wont allow any single mistake in my marriage. But of cause i forgave him afterall its like a very minor thing. And of cause now i'll make an effort to give "in" to him.
But how do i forget the scence, everytime i walked pass the computer, it reminds me of the "scence" and tears starts to flow down.. i dont want to hurt our relationship just because of this matter..
maybe due to the pressure of our newborn, i totally have no mood for sex at all.
Recently found out that hubby was "doing it" himself while looking at pics of ladies on the internet, (those models posing for cars or ladies in skimpy cltohes, etc.) But they all not nude though. There's a question going on my head, why did he look at those pics instead of watching porn?? (which normally guys will do) And those pics are not nude at all. Is this his fetish??
im extremenly hurt after catching hin red handed, but also thankful he didnt went to look for one night stand instead. I did went to confront him and he said he was very sorry and promise me not to do that again.. he told me he did that because "he is a man" and im always rejecting him..
I know im the one in the wrong in the first place, but i just cant forget the "scence", it kept flashing back in my mind i felt so hurt. I even thought of leaving him. Maybe im a pefectionist when comes to marriage. I wont allow any single mistake in my marriage. But of cause i forgave him afterall its like a very minor thing. And of cause now i'll make an effort to give "in" to him.
But how do i forget the scence, everytime i walked pass the computer, it reminds me of the "scence" and tears starts to flow down.. i dont want to hurt our relationship just because of this matter..