December i found tat my husband have someone in mind.. though he did not admit it but i told him i saw what he wrote. i forgive him and went on to act happily though i was hurting as i love him a lot. we have been married for 13 years and with have a child.
Though this few months i found out a lot of bad thing about myself (after talking to him)....and what he feels about me.
1. he did love me when he marry me
2. he have a change of heart not just sudden but gradual ( after i marry him, i have issue with work and colleague and friends which i talk to him and he tried to helped me and he have had enough and he shut off )
3. wrote on a book that he know the girl since 2007, work on her 2008, want to see if she is the right one 2009 ( i feel hurt though he say he is just writing it)
4. i harp on thing... ( my goodness this is our marriage after all.. do i just seat back n not say a word)
5. he DID love me when he marry me, he found me to be strong and independent and could help me but he was disappointed ( he said that )...
sigh.. i take it all in, i know internally its not good for me as i will be sick one day because of this and i no longer want to peep at his stuff... he say he wants to work on our relationship in january but with the girl around? maybe others can, i can't handle it... i don't cry much now, just pray for strength...
i know he is looking for happiness as his story changes n now say even without girl, its still our problems.
i just want to know for those who have moved out with their child, where does one pick up the courage and move on. he said that "what you say is not true but it can become a reality", when i say put me and child somewhere, he did not even say don't go ( maybe i was hoping he will stop me but i know he is not willing to her the girl, but me... his story changes often, try to con me ah....hahahah ) but when this happen, i am am very careful to wat he say.
as previously he say
1. he don't feel love
2. i care for son more
i do not want to end up being bitter....
Thanks for reading a long story.. its longer but ya! i should stop harping... i am not young anymore whilst the girls is like in her late 20's... son is young....
Though this few months i found out a lot of bad thing about myself (after talking to him)....and what he feels about me.
1. he did love me when he marry me
2. he have a change of heart not just sudden but gradual ( after i marry him, i have issue with work and colleague and friends which i talk to him and he tried to helped me and he have had enough and he shut off )
3. wrote on a book that he know the girl since 2007, work on her 2008, want to see if she is the right one 2009 ( i feel hurt though he say he is just writing it)
4. i harp on thing... ( my goodness this is our marriage after all.. do i just seat back n not say a word)
5. he DID love me when he marry me, he found me to be strong and independent and could help me but he was disappointed ( he said that )...
sigh.. i take it all in, i know internally its not good for me as i will be sick one day because of this and i no longer want to peep at his stuff... he say he wants to work on our relationship in january but with the girl around? maybe others can, i can't handle it... i don't cry much now, just pray for strength...
i know he is looking for happiness as his story changes n now say even without girl, its still our problems.
i just want to know for those who have moved out with their child, where does one pick up the courage and move on. he said that "what you say is not true but it can become a reality", when i say put me and child somewhere, he did not even say don't go ( maybe i was hoping he will stop me but i know he is not willing to her the girl, but me... his story changes often, try to con me ah....hahahah ) but when this happen, i am am very careful to wat he say.
as previously he say
1. he don't feel love
2. i care for son more
i do not want to end up being bitter....
Thanks for reading a long story.. its longer but ya! i should stop harping... i am not young anymore whilst the girls is like in her late 20's... son is young....