Erm.. Hope this story is an positive inspiration to all.
I was in a r/s for over 7 years with a guy. We started during poly days and stayed together throughout his NS period.
In this r/s, I was never good enough for him to show to his family and friends as I am not "improving" myself (e.g. makeup and dress nicely, find a good paying job, obtain higher qualification, etc.). Eventually after he started working, I was dumped for not being good enough as he had a better paying job and was going for degree course (using money from his grandparents).
Initially I found it hard to move on and suffered with severe inferiority complex. It was so bad that I dare not look in the mirror as I was not "presentable" and not good enough for anyone. I also had suicidal thoughts. Fortunately my family was there to support me and walked me out of misery after some time.
One can live life happily even if you are alone, with the "right" one it will make your life a little more happier. This word of advice changed me and I started loving myself, starting with lifestyle changes, outings and activities with family and close friends and also occasional treats to pamper myself. Gradually I built up self-confidence better than before.
It was then I started socialising on a dating site that I met my current bf (now fiance
). He was receptive of my previous encounter and treated me with respect despite my flaws. We went through a period of conflicts as well but both of us are willing to listen and talk it out to resolve it which makes the r/s meaningful. I was glad that my previous r/s ended as it would have turned for the worst. I couldn't have imagine what I would have become.
To all who are still looking for the "one", I would suggest loving yourself as a person first before loving someone else. Don't fall into the trap of diminishing your self-worth to be with someone as it will not be healthy in the long run.
Keep the positive stories coming!