Hello, would like to listen some of you ladies' experience and advice. Do you look forward and are excited when marrying the guy of your life? I have been with a guy (my first) for 3 years, and am always the girl who look forward to getting married, settle down and stuffs. Have tried to bring up the topic of marriage with the guy a couple of times over these years, but his reply seem to be that he would laugh at it or brush the topic away. Conclusion is, everytime I bring up this topic, it has never been addressed (i.e. we never get to talk about it). And honestly I feel very sad. I voiced out my sadness to him too, so he know about it. I actually feel quite stressed and saddened over this. We are both approaching 30. Each time I really have to muster alot of courage to even bring this topic up... because I am so afraid that it would ended up with both of us not happy, which usually is the case. But it matters alot to me, that I can't don't bring it up. I look at social media, and see pictures of ladies feeling excited and looking forward to marrying the guy of their life. Don't get me wrong - I still do look forward and enjoy being with the guy. But I have to admit, that my excitement of marriage has decreased over the years, due to the "rejection" (or is it neglection ?) of the topic I had faced. How I feel to the topic, is like a kid who always dream and really want to have the chocolate ice-cream. But keep on can't get it... until the point where the kid kinda give up and no longer that interested in the chocolate ice-cream. I really don't know if the issue is the person or the expectation and dream that I have imagined... or is me. I mean if put this topic aside, I do enjoy being with the guy around, I feel safe and comfortable being with him. It is just that I have these set of expectations that grow up with me, that I want to be with xxx kind of guy, I want to get marry by xxx, have kids by xxx, etc. I don't know how to let go of these expectations and deal with reality. Appreciate the time reading this and hearing me out.