i broken up with my ex-boyfriend 2 mths plus ago.. Over the past 2 mths, i felt myself living in the hell. Cried day and night, begged him to back to my side so many many times till i worn out. we were ex-col. and being 2gether for 6 mths plus. but love dint measured by the time, i reli luv him deeply both my soul,mind..I went to oversea for 3 mths and he tried hard to maintain till met the gal. He said sori and dun noe y changed his heart and can't find the feeling as before when i back. i totally lost and can't accept it. i am in panic and anxiety, started to share with my ex-col hope can find the way out. It only made it worst cause i can't make up my mind. everytime, i decided to let it go next moment i begged him up again till he felt irritated and i only being. I even think to commit suicide, sadlost my directio of life. he told me he the most he luv was his 1st galfren and back to fren mean gave the chance for both of us. at the end, it still gone. 3 wks ago, i cut all the contact with him to help myself recover, move on. but i noe I still loving him, is there any chance to patch up? my heart so painful to let it go..