candledreams
New Member
Hi all, my first time posting here, need some advice on what I should do.
Before that, some background info.
As a kid (in fact till now), I always had low-esteem, and it all boils down to the fact that I have congenital ptosis (or in layman terms, droopy eyelid) for my right eye. I went for an op when I was young, and the doc tried to make both eyes are symmetrical as he could. But my right eye is still a whole load smaller than my left eye, it has a double eyelid while my left eye does not. If you look at me directly in the face, the difference is pretty obvious.
All these years, I have resorted to using my fringe to cover my smaller right eye, so that it wont be too obvious. I never liked taking close up photographs. Eye makeup doesnt seem to work for me. A few times in the past, I tried using eyeliner and mascara to cover the difference. But my right eye is very very sensitive and those times when i used eyeliner, my eye teared so badly. Have since forgo the idea of using eye makeup.
My SO never ever mentioned about my eyes before. I'm not sure if he is so blur that he really didnt notice, or just that he doesnt want to comment. But i must add here that all the photos that we have taken together before, have been photoshopped by me. I would make sure that either we dont take close up photo, or my smaller right eye has been photoshopped to make it look same size as the left. So maybe my SO is basing it on the photos, and doesnt think that I have one big one small eyes.
So now, I'm thinking of how I'm going to 'survive' the wedding shoot which is happening quite some time into the future. Usually wedding shots will include super close up shots for the couple right? Haiz. And I have no idea how my eye is going to handle the copious amount of eye makeup.
I'm contemplating going for eyelid surgery. But (1), even after the op, the doc cant guarantee perfect symmetry. (2) the op is pretty costly (3) how to go for the op without my SO knowing about it??? And he will def notice that i have done sth to my eye. My eye will swell for awhile after op.
Really need advice on what I shld do? Should I be telling my SO, 'hey look, my eyes are not unequal'??? I'm thinking that what he doesnt know/notice, lets just keep it that way and not rock the boat. Is there any makeup artist who has handled such case before? Sigh. wedding is supposed to be a happy occasion, but Im totally fearing it.
Before that, some background info.
As a kid (in fact till now), I always had low-esteem, and it all boils down to the fact that I have congenital ptosis (or in layman terms, droopy eyelid) for my right eye. I went for an op when I was young, and the doc tried to make both eyes are symmetrical as he could. But my right eye is still a whole load smaller than my left eye, it has a double eyelid while my left eye does not. If you look at me directly in the face, the difference is pretty obvious.
All these years, I have resorted to using my fringe to cover my smaller right eye, so that it wont be too obvious. I never liked taking close up photographs. Eye makeup doesnt seem to work for me. A few times in the past, I tried using eyeliner and mascara to cover the difference. But my right eye is very very sensitive and those times when i used eyeliner, my eye teared so badly. Have since forgo the idea of using eye makeup.
My SO never ever mentioned about my eyes before. I'm not sure if he is so blur that he really didnt notice, or just that he doesnt want to comment. But i must add here that all the photos that we have taken together before, have been photoshopped by me. I would make sure that either we dont take close up photo, or my smaller right eye has been photoshopped to make it look same size as the left. So maybe my SO is basing it on the photos, and doesnt think that I have one big one small eyes.
So now, I'm thinking of how I'm going to 'survive' the wedding shoot which is happening quite some time into the future. Usually wedding shots will include super close up shots for the couple right? Haiz. And I have no idea how my eye is going to handle the copious amount of eye makeup.
I'm contemplating going for eyelid surgery. But (1), even after the op, the doc cant guarantee perfect symmetry. (2) the op is pretty costly (3) how to go for the op without my SO knowing about it??? And he will def notice that i have done sth to my eye. My eye will swell for awhile after op.
Really need advice on what I shld do? Should I be telling my SO, 'hey look, my eyes are not unequal'??? I'm thinking that what he doesnt know/notice, lets just keep it that way and not rock the boat. Is there any makeup artist who has handled such case before? Sigh. wedding is supposed to be a happy occasion, but Im totally fearing it.