hi everyone...still remember me? esp. powder
i m back to share a TRUTH, lots of realisation and perhaps needed some hearing & feedback ...
Maybe i should use the word "FINALLY"...after 3 years seperation with my hubby. I happen to know he has already remarried with 2 beautiful girls now...During my last 2 years of begging for a reconcilation...WAS actually silly, so ironical and a waste of time CAUSE he has move on - so much much much eariler...
It was a 14th years relationship ( incl. 7 years of marriage )...
Back in 2006 - we had some big fights
He wanted a immediate seperation in Jan 2007
I beg for 2 years in 2007 + 2008
Finally in 2009, we are seperated ...
Main reasons for our big fights then - he's not given enough time for me and at home...and we struggling to have our baby issues ( which past we had few operations and few failed test tube baby - ivf encountered )
and worse still doctor diagnosed us under "NO reason "for inability to conceive!!!
We just got to spend tons of dollar getting hurt, disappointment, heartache and countless of tears to try on ...
I am writing now because i want to hear ...WHY am i still suffering, hurting, tearing till TODAY ...BUT yet he has move on so fast!!!???
restarting his NEW family with babies 1 smoothly after another...
How come i m still feeling such intense pain in everyday of my life...JUST moving on so slowly compare to his.....
ALSO i feel and accepted the fact on what people always say - the 1 to initate for a break up will SURE to move on much much more faster - leaving the one feeling still finding reasons, still confuse, still hurting, tearing ...
It is just SO TRUE...
I have to find reason to accept - HOW much i love, feel & willing to sacrifice and do for him DOESN't equal to his love for me at all in all these years...I just need MORE TIME to accept, to move on with this facts
My love for him is NOT EQUAL to his love for me...that is all, all that i need to know and accept now
Can u guys HELP to wake me up more quickly!!!
i m back to share a TRUTH, lots of realisation and perhaps needed some hearing & feedback ...
Maybe i should use the word "FINALLY"...after 3 years seperation with my hubby. I happen to know he has already remarried with 2 beautiful girls now...During my last 2 years of begging for a reconcilation...WAS actually silly, so ironical and a waste of time CAUSE he has move on - so much much much eariler...
It was a 14th years relationship ( incl. 7 years of marriage )...
Back in 2006 - we had some big fights
He wanted a immediate seperation in Jan 2007
I beg for 2 years in 2007 + 2008
Finally in 2009, we are seperated ...
Main reasons for our big fights then - he's not given enough time for me and at home...and we struggling to have our baby issues ( which past we had few operations and few failed test tube baby - ivf encountered )
and worse still doctor diagnosed us under "NO reason "for inability to conceive!!!
We just got to spend tons of dollar getting hurt, disappointment, heartache and countless of tears to try on ...
I am writing now because i want to hear ...WHY am i still suffering, hurting, tearing till TODAY ...BUT yet he has move on so fast!!!???
restarting his NEW family with babies 1 smoothly after another...
How come i m still feeling such intense pain in everyday of my life...JUST moving on so slowly compare to his.....
ALSO i feel and accepted the fact on what people always say - the 1 to initate for a break up will SURE to move on much much more faster - leaving the one feeling still finding reasons, still confuse, still hurting, tearing ...
It is just SO TRUE...
I have to find reason to accept - HOW much i love, feel & willing to sacrifice and do for him DOESN't equal to his love for me at all in all these years...I just need MORE TIME to accept, to move on with this facts
My love for him is NOT EQUAL to his love for me...that is all, all that i need to know and accept now
Can u guys HELP to wake me up more quickly!!!