Milo, on a serious note...i believe Scope's advice has some practicality and realism to it.
U may not choose to accept this but there is no right or wrong in this forum. we are sharing our views so that anyone can choose to benefit from it.
My advice to Yi Ling is to calm yourself down and take charge of your life.
Go on a holiday. Get a new prospective of the direction u wanna take. Be pro-active.
You have 2 kids right now. It is not going to help them if u are going to wallow in yr situation or just accept, etc.