Oh my, it's really complicated, if not all love conquers all but sometimes we really need to think and think again. You still young you can still change it. good luck!
Also you can check Gaziantep, this place is famous in Turkey for its pistachios, and its amazing kebabs and the Zeugma Mosaic Museum (the world’s largest mosaic museum) are also great reasons to visit.
Yah this please is very beautiful, also you can try to go to Ayas Sofa all I know that this is considered as one of the most beautiful buildings in the world and is one of the top things to visit in Istanbul, Turkey.
I've been there when I was a kid with my Aunties. I can say is a nice please but not really appreaciate it so much. But better plan first before you will go. Cheers